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Silence on Silence Day
  – Jenny Keating

Burned by Beauty
  – Buck Busfield

CCCs
  – Billy Goodrum

Amartithi
  – Bruce Felknor

"You'll find Me in the garden"
  – Jenny Keating

'Heart Tires of Its Gaudy Dress' – Francis Brabazon
  – Buck Busfield

HOLLYWOOD
  – Billy Goodrum

Trust and Intimacy
  – Jenny Keating

Living with Baba
  – Bruce Felknor

When Words Fail . . . Just Use More Words
  – Buck Busfield

Suffering and Service
  – Juniper Lesnik

SPOILER ALERT
  – Billy Goodrum

The charm of His ways. . .
  – Jenny Keating

The Importance of Being Furnished
  – Bruce Felknor

It's Been Fun
  – Steve Klein

Let’s Talk about Love
  – Juniper Lesnik

Cannes
  – Billy Goodrum

In the world but not of it . . .
  – Jenny Keating

Give Me Your Imperfections
  – Wendy Connor

Children of the One God
  – Bruce Felknor

As the Poet Says
  – Steve Klein

Happy Endings
  – Jenny Keating

Thoughts on Furniture
  – Billy Goodrum

Going Home
  – Juniper Lesnik

A Tale of Two Connections
  – Bruce Felknor

The Flowering Seed
  – Wendy Connor

Baby Steps
  – Steve Klein

Patience
  – Jenny Keating

Hold On!
  – Juniper Lesnik

Waiting for the New Humanity
  – Billy Goodrum

Remembering
  – Bruce Felknor

The Beloved's Beloved
  – Wendy Connor

Compare and Contrast
  – Steve Klein

It's in the struggle . . .
  – Jenny Keating

Time
  – Juniper Lesnik

The Tipping Point
  – Billy Goodrum

Learning Poise
  – Bruce Felknor

When "Good Enough" Isn't
  – Steve Klein

Conflict and Joy
  – Jenny Keating

Sleepless in San Jose
  – Juniper Lesnik

Vacation Incarnation
  – Steve Klein

Nerve Endings of the Soul
  – Jenny Keating

"Let the World Wait"
  – Wendy Connor

Religion vs Spirituality
  – Steve Klein

The Bigger Challenge
  – Wendy Connor

Que Sera Sera
  – Steve Klein

To Be Honest
  – Juniper Lesnik

Praise and Blame
  – Steve Klein

Being Right
  – Steve Klein

To Love God is To Love Our Fellow Beings
  – Juniper Lesnik

God is Alive in the World
  – Wendy Connor

Determined to Be His
  – Steve Klein

The Stuff We're Made Of
  – Juniper Lesnik

"I Will Always Be With You": Memories of the East West Gathering
  – Wendy Connor

Half Full or Half Empty?
  – Steve Klein

Love The One You're With
  – Steve Klein

Ordinary Life
  – Juniper Lesnik

Baba Loved Us Too
  – Wendy Connor

Feeling His Love
  – Steve Klein

He is both Father and Mother
  – Juniper Lesnik

A Leap of Faith
  – Wendy Connor

Becoming His
  – Steve Klein

Don't Worry, Be Happy
  – Juniper Lesnik

A Life Worth Living
  – Wendy Connor

Love The One You're With
  – Steve Klein

What a Mighty Beloved our Beloved is
  – Wendy Connor

To thine own self be true?
  – Steve Klein

The Sweets of His Love
  – Wendy Connor

Sickness and Health
  – Juniper Lesnik

Giving Advice
  – Steve Klein

"Garlic-Faced"
  – Wendy Connor

To Love and Be Loved
  – Juniper Lesnik

Talking About The Truth
  – Steve Klein

The Script was Written Long Ago
  – Wendy Connor

Excuse Me, Which Way to God?
  – Steve Klein

Letting Go
  – Juniper Lesnik

The Mosquitoes are Bad Today
  – Wendy Connor

What If A Teaching Moment Never Comes?
  – Steve Klein

Beads On One String
  – Juniper Lesnik

Youth Sahavas '07
  – Wendy Connor

Stop, You're Both Right!
  – Steve Klein

God, Please Give me a Job
  – Juniper Lesnik

"It Just Passes More Quickly"
  – Wendy Connor

Multiple Meher Babas
  – Steve Klein

Winking Back
  – Juniper Lesnik

The Treasure Within
  – Wendy Connor

Holding On, But Losing One's Grip
  – Steve Klein

1969
  – Ann Conlon

Obedience
  – Ann Conlon

Meher Center – The Way It Was
  – Ann Conlon

Armageddon, Anyone?
  – Ann Conlon

What Does Baba Want Me to Do?
  – Ann Conlon

Baba's 'Things'
  – Ann Conlon

The Way It Was – Meherabad
  – Ann Conlon

What Does THAT Mean?
  – Ann Conlon

Doing "Baba Work"
  – Ann Conlon

Broken Heads
  – Ann Conlon

Enid
  – Ann Conlon

On Being Ill
  – Ann Conlon

To Each His Own
  – Ann Conlon

Meherjee
  – Ann Conlon

Youth Sahavas
  – Ann Conlon

Kitty
  – Ann Conlon

The Lonely Path
  – Ann Conlon

Isn't He Enough?
  – Ann Conlon

He Said What?
  – Ann Conlon

Goher
  – Ann Conlon

Taking a Dare
  – Ann Conlon

Seeking Suffering
  – Ann Conlon

Dreams
  – Ann Conlon

Amartithi
  – Ann Conlon

Margaret
  – Ann Conlon

"The Disciple"
  – Ann Conlon

I Wonder ...
  – Ann Conlon

Backbiting, etc.
  – Ann Conlon

Hearing His Name
  – Ann Conlon

Rites, Rituals and Ceremonies
  – Ann Conlon

"Baba's Group"
  – Ann Conlon

His Promise
  – Ann Conlon

Then and Now
  – Ann Conlon

Middlemen Revisited
  – Ann Conlon

Padri
  – Ann Conlon

Gateway Days
  – Ann Conlon

The New Life
  – Ann Conlon

Books, Books and More Books
  – Ann Conlon

Elizabeth Patterson
  – Ann Conlon

His "Last Warning"
  – Ann Conlon

Detachment
  – Ann Conlon

Is That A Religion Coming?
  – Ann Conlon

Manifestation: Did He Or Didn't He?
  – Ann Conlon

A Country of Our Own?
  – Ann Conlon

Remembering Mohammed
  – Ann Conlon

Advice (Sort-Of) for Newcomers
  – Ann Conlon

You're a Baba Lover If...
  – Ann Conlon

Real Happiness
  – Ann Conlon

Baba Lover, Baba Follower or Both?
  – Ann Conlon

Meherazad – The Way It Was
  – Ann Conlon

The Strongest Memories
  – Ann Conlon

All (Baba) Things Considered

Trust and Intimacy

My husband Ross is a book collector, I would say obsessive, though he would stoutly deny this. But it has its advantages – he has every book Francis Brabazon has ever mentioned as worth reading; he has also collected all the books he ever heard Eruch say he read and liked. This means I have easy access to edifying material for my nightly read before bed.

A book I picked out a few months back is He and I, a record of the conversations between the Catholic Mystic and layperson Gabrielle Bossis and the "Inner Voice" of Jesus Christ. This is a book Eruch loved and it is easy to see why; it is all about Love and developing an intimate relationship with the One who resides within us all: “Don’t get the idea you are speaking to a memory, a past ideal, a remote God. You are speaking to Me, fully alive in you…it's like family life…what I’m always seeking in My people is this life of intimacy with Me.”

But the topic that caught my attention was on trust, and its link with love and happiness: “Fan the flame of your confidence…keep it burning in Me. I want you to be happy, so come back again and again to this feeling of trust until you are never without it. Trust is an aspect of love…Trust in Me with all your heart since I am your great Friend…My help never comes to an end, and I never cease to watch over you…”

On this same subject Beloved Baba has told us:

“… if we trust in God and let Him worry for us, we live contented and happy” (Lord Meher; Guruprasad, 1960); "Trust in Me completely and I will solve all difficulties;" and more tellingly, "Belief, trust and faith are all illusory phenomena if not based on conviction through personal experience” (1937; Lord Meher, p. 1883).

Perhaps it was this reference to the necessity for personal experience that set me thinking about my own journey in relation to trust and intimacy. For I certainly discovered through experience, that to trust Baba and go where He leads, when I feel strongly pulled in the opposite direction – by what I want, or think should happen – requires a leap of faith, a plunge into an unknown realm where nothing is certain.

One of my first experiences of taking the plunge into this unknown territory happened many, many years ago and was tied into my maturing relationship with Baba as separate from my parents; the beginnings of the individuation process Jung speaks of, when we are struggling to find our own path in life, and in particular our own relationship with the Divine.

This experience came out of a "crossroads" situation in my life: one way led in the direction of what I wanted and felt I needed, which my mind was desperately trying to justify; and in the other direction lay what I felt deep down Baba wanted. Of course initially I didn’t know what Baba wanted because my mind was so busy justifying why I should do what I wanted. But when the uneasiness inside me could no longer be ignored, I started to contemplate the awful truth: that what I wanted, was not what Baba wanted. But what Baba wanted felt like I was giving up so much. And the dilemma became, how to accept what He wanted? It seemed too difficult. But I remember to this day the moment when, after a long struggle, I finally let go, "took the plunge" and declared inwardly: “Ok, Baba, I give in, I’m going to take a chance on You, I’m going to trust You; trust that if I do what You want then it will all work out for the best.”

Unexpectedly, but not surprisingly, this "taking the plunge"; this trusting Baba, became the beginnings of a much more meaningful relationship with Him. I discovered He came into my life in a new way – intimately, lovingly, compassionately. I found that although trusting Baba meant giving up what I wanted, and felt I needed, and facing difficulties in the process, He filled the space left by unfulfilled desires with His Presence and turned what might have become bitter resignation into sweet surrender and even joy. And with time, to the sweetness was added deep gratitude and wonder, at how perfectly He works everything out: my deepest needs were met, and I felt saved from the inevitable "self-harm" that ensues when one ‘forces God’s Hand’ rather than surrendering to His Wish and Will.

But understanding how important it is to learn to trust Baba and have faith that what He wants will eventually bring happiness and contentment, has been a gradual process of trial and error. Unfortunately, I’m not always able to let go of what I want and trust that what He wants will work out for the best in the end. Sometimes I can’t resist going my own way. Sometimes the pull of what I want is too strong. And inevitably, I suffer the consequences. I’ve found I need in this "learning to trust" business, patience – a lot of patience. I often get impatient – change seems so slow.  Sometimes I want Him to just quickly resolve things, but He always tells me inwardly: “It can’t happen just by asking; you have to go through the process. Real change is gradual. You have to learn to endure, to be patient, to trust I know what’s best for each one, and wait for what I want to unfold.”

But in the meantime, in the "waiting," I have to do the "work" of taking the dilemma to heart, trying to be honest about my own motives and my own perspective; it requires me giving up worrying or even thinking about what the future holds. It requires the practice of silencing the voices of my own desires and going deep within to hear His voice. And sometimes it requires the hardest thing of all: doing nothing. But ultimately, when I have no idea of the outcome or how it could ever work out well, it requires me doing my very best and then completely letting go, and wholeheartedly trusting He will take care of everything and everyone, perfectly.

And, having "taken the plunge" in some difficult decisions over the years and finding just how perfectly He does work things out for the best – once I get out of the way – I’ve begun to trust Him more easily: in day-to-day situations I more readily relax mentally into His arms and leave whatever I can’t sort out, to Him. I can now see how, when I’m able to do this, it is possible despite difficulties in life, to "live contented and happy."

I'll leave you with a few more of Jesus’ words to Gabrielle on this subject which I’ve found helpful:

“Above all confidence! When you have an anxiety and you can do nothing about it, just think: ‘He will straighten that out for me’ – and go back into the peace within Me.”

“It’s not enough to know about this love; above all you must have faith in it. How much comfort people would find and what happiness even in the midst of trials, if they only believed that everything that happens to them comes from My desire to do them good and that all is fitted to the measure of each one…”.

And lastly:

“Keep going blindly. Take delight in knowing nothing about the future for the sole purpose of seizing an opportunity of abandoning it to Me. I know how to lead the blind by the best paths…”.

Published 2016.